Tuesday, August 19, 2014


I've been asked a lot lately whether I'm going to post any new stories here.  The direct answer is that if I do anything worth writing about, I'll post.  It's been a very long time since I've had the urge bad enough to lose control, so it might not be soon.

Maybe I'm changing as I get older (I'll be 34 next month) or maybe this is just what happens naturally as time passes.  I don't know.  I'm definitely still me, and I do still think of perverse and horrible things to do to myself, just not as often anymore, and I don't follow through and actually do them. That may be for the best because lately my imagination drifts towards things that would be too dangerous to try.  The same kind of stuff, just more extreme.

Other things in my life have been changing too.  The practice I work for has grown and I'm now the office manager.  I'm working a normal 8-5 schedule for the first time ever and actually succeeding.  I replaced my car without help from my dad.  I've moved into a two bedroom apartment.  I have a big orange cat named Ben. 

And I have been on a couple of dates this summer, which might astound some people I chat with.  I don't know what I'm looking for yet, relationship, intimacy, friendship, but I do know that I'm definitely not looking for someone to share my perversions with.  That part I keep to myself.  Anyway, I'm happy that I've finally begun to interact socially with real people again.  Face to face.  That's an achievement for me. 

So that's what I've been up to lately.  It'll probably continue to be a long time between posts here.  I read my email regularly but I'm bad at replying.  Sometime I catch up, sometimes I wait too long on some messages and then it doesn't make sense to reply.  I don't mean to be rude.  It just happens.  If I get in the mood I'll chat on IRC though that hasn't happened in a while.  I find it easiest to chat with people who've already found this blog and know who Blowfly Girl is or have read my first maggot story in one of the hundreds of places it's been reposted.  In chatrooms when people don't know me I scare them away pretty quickly.  That gets old after a while. 

On the subject of emails, I do want to say thank you to everyone who has written just to say they enjoyed my stories or to compliment my writing.  I've been getting more of these recently and fewer propositions for sex or pleas for me to get psychiatric or spiritual help.  So, seriously, thank you. 

Thursday, April 3, 2014

Work stuff, this might be a bore.

We've got Dragon Naturally Speaking Legal Edition now! 

My boss sat with me and showed me how to use it and it is amazing.  It's like creepy how well it understands my voice.  I'm a legal transcriptionist, it's my job, so you might think I ought to be worried about becoming obsolete but I do more than just take recorded dictation so no.  I've learned a lot about the kind of law this practice does and I've learned some real skills.  I do a lot of stuff, things a paralegal usually does.  I know probably I would still be valuable even if I never do any more transcribing.  I'd still be here.  We do mostly class action lawsuits.  I can't tell about any details about it because you might have seen our TV commercials depending on where you are (no, not the Mesothelioma cases).  But we really are getting more clients all the time.  Actually, being totally real, my boss is my dad's best buddy and that's how I got this job in the first place when I still had trouble showing up for work every day.  My boss and my dad play golf together.  When one of them buys a new tool, they both play with it and then the other one, either one, has to buy one too.  The same tool.  Every time.  And our families have been together for more than one Seder dinner.  You know, we're very close.  Since I was little.  So I am very grateful that my boss took the risk and gave me the opportunity to prove myself.  I don't think I am going to lose my job because of Dragon but who am I to assume?

...So that last paragraph was just random blabbering into this headset microphone just now.  I didn't edit it much because I realized how different it reads than how I write.  "Seeing" my speaking voice, I wonder if it changes how you think of me.  I'd like to know, if you feel like commenting.  Just curious.

So now I've put up a filth-free post.  I promise that won't become a habit.